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Dec. 7th, 2005 @ 02:35 pm The Christmas Blah!!
Current Mood: contemplative
Well of course it is that time of year again.... don't get me wrong I enjoy Christmas, just not all the fuss leading up to it. This year is an interesting year for me though since I have now graduated from university and have a full time job.

Hence, my usual 2-4 week Christmas holiday is no longer something to look forward to. On the other side of things, I now have a lot more disposable income to play around with. The search for the 'perfect' or appropriate gift is now in full swing and hopefully I will be able to finish it all up tonight!! Mind you I haven't really bought a single thing yet, so that might be a bit of a stretch.

I was talking to one of my best friends today on MSN about a friend of our in Ottawa. She is currently disinhabited from her apartment and is now living on a friends couch, with no hope of getting home for Christmas. Being the guys we are... and our affection for this friend we are beginning to consider making the trekk up there to get her and take her home to Cape Breton, or to Fredericton anyway. Where she can then hop on a bus or catch a ride down with other friends.

Problem being that my buddy might have ot work the only available weekend we have before Christmas and that may throw a kink in things for us. But who knows.. I might just end up renting a vehicle and going myself, for the hell of it!!! Too many things to consider here... but time will tell.

Tara... don't worry girl... you'll be well looked after!!
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Nov. 25th, 2005 @ 03:25 pm Purge Day!!
Current Mood: refreshed
So we have this new Health and Wellness initiative in progress in my workplace(Tourism and Parks New Brunswick.) One of the tasks to complete is called a purge day. Today is that day and everyone who is here has been busy all day cleaning out their offices. Things like archivable print documents, recyclables and dusting are seen in a flurry of activity.

Personally I don't have much of what could be called an office. I share "my space" with old computer s and parts and various other useless things. So my main task was to organize this stuff and feel like I had soem room to move around. Thanks to many years of relentless cleaning under my mothers supervision:P I got it done and dusted/washed everything I could reach. I also moved my computer all to one corner of my desk which is a welcome change.

Other than that, my parents are done this weekend for a Christmas party for the company my mom works for. It's usually a great time and I always stop by to visit and have a couple. My roommate has his little brother down today too. He's 7 or 8 years old and thought that he needed to come to the city to spend the weekend/night with us. He's a cool kid though and he brought his Xbox so it should be a great night.

Well... back to work :(
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Nov. 17th, 2005 @ 12:19 pm Random utterings
Current Mood: Finally got some rest
Well I just had a whole weeks vacation!! The first time in my working career. Now I have had many vacations mind you... I've been to the Carribean, Europe, Tennessee/North Carolina, Florida, across Canada to Calagary etc. This was simply the first time that I went on vacation and went back to the same job. All my other vacations involved a break before returning to school where I basically quit/retired from my job to go.

My vacation consisted of spending the week in a hunting camp owned by friends of our family. We actually drank 5 quart and 2 40oz of Rye that week!! Mind you all of this drinking was after dark and therefore there was no "impaired hunting/driving" All in all it was a great week. I saw quite a few deer and 5 black bear. Of course I saw 4 of the bears at once... a sow and her 3! cubs.

I also read the entire Da Vinci Code last week, started on Wednesday and finished Sunday night. I think that may be the fastest I have ever read a book. I didn't even read all the time, only in the evenings and a bit throughout the day. The book is simply amazing, you don't need to know anything about the topic to enjoy and learn a lot on the way. Much of it is up to your own beliefs and interpretation though as you may not agree with what is said.

Now that I am back to work I am seriously wishing to be back in the woods. I've spent most of my life in close concert with the environment. Now that I have an office job I rarely get the chance to just go for random walks or driving tours... I really miss all of that, though at times I hated it when it was required.

Well off to another journal... perhaps something a bit more enlightening.
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Oct. 28th, 2005 @ 02:13 pm Let's have a bush tellie about my plans to be a Dero and hit the turps!!
Current Mood: Planning my trip...

  Haha, I leave the title for you to figure out. So I went up to 'Whack-a-dick' last night and met my father to go hunting the elusive white tail before dark. 'Lo and behold we actually saw a big doe and 2 yearlings!! Of course, I only have my buck permit so that wasn't much good to me, interesting and enjoyful . none the less we got to sit and watch them for a while before they wandered off.

  This week (past 7 days) have been excellent for me in terms of seeing wildlife. Last Saturday I was up home and then heading to my friend Adams place, when I saw a pheasant standing in the middle of the road! Then when I got nearer to Adams I looked into a field and saw a big black spot. Of course being the curious type I drove through the field and realized that it was a big bull moose!! He just stood there while I watched him and let me drive to within 100 yards of him. I tried to take o picture of him but my damn batteries were dead in my camera!!   After I got to Adams, we decided to go for supper, about a minute up the road there were 4 deer standing by the road in one of the fields!! Got a pretty good look at them before they took off into the woods too.

  Heading up home for the night tonight. Then hopefully I will get to spend the day with dad driving around and seeing the sights. This is one of my favorite times of the year for that simple reason. Just being able to spend all that time with my father, doing something we both enjoy without another care in the world. I know I take it for granted and that few are lucky enough to be able to do this. Of all the life lessons that I have learned, my parents have been the reason or been part of 99% of them. I'm not a momma's or daddy's boy by any means and live quite liberally, knowing that they will be there whenever I need them.

  I have to head back down here Saturday night though, because I am going to a Situational Leadership course on Sunday. Yes on Sunday!! Imagine that!! The course seems interesting though and even better, I get to go for free through work! I thnk there is a dinner provided as well  so that is another benefit.

  Well Liz (If you're reading this), since you don't like how I write so much... I'll stop here and save myself the verbal bashing from you :P :P

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Oct. 27th, 2005 @ 12:19 pm To be or not to be...
Current Mood: restless

  That is the question. Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or take arms a sea of troubles... That's the rendition my memory still retains from high school English class :)

  The question that I want to answer though is what the hell I want to come April 2006. At that tiem my contract here in the government will come to an end, with little hope of renewal. Even if there is the chance I don't know if I really want to stay on. Don't get me wrong, the pay is awesome, the perks were/are great (they were tangibly better in the spring and summer) and the people I work wiht are some of the best I ever have. Its just that I am beginning to get fed up with the buracracy of everything.

  You see, I am trying to implement a renewable energy project idea that I came up with. It includes such things as solar heating for one of the pools in the provincial parks, water heating in general and off-setting the power costs of the parks. To me this is an obvious direction to take. The parks serve primarily as tourist destination. Inherently though, they seek to 'protect' a piece of the province for the present and future enjoyment of citizens and visitors. By converting as much of the parks to renewable energy use serves a plethora of benefits to long to list here. All the while saving a shit load of money that the parks desperately need to continue operation. Why the hell is it so difficult for people to understand and appreciate this?? Sure the up-front costs are high, but with todays technology the pay back is more than acceptable.

  Back to my original point, I have been looking at career choices I see open to me. I love to travel as well and would love a job that allowed and even better assisted me in this endeavour. I looked at http://www.internabroad.com/search.cfm and http://www.gvi.co.uk/ . These two sites provide a lot of info. on travelling aroudn the world while learning different cultures and working at the same time. The gvi.co.uk one has a particularly interesting program (for me anyway) where you can travel to South Africa to track and study the "Big 5", that being large animals such as lions!!! That would be simply amazing.

 My problem is, to what end or benefit will that help me to succeed in my career? Sure I might be able to correctly the gutteral mating call of an alpha male lion or track on in the dark of night... but just how many lions am I liable to run into here in New Brunswick? I know that there is more to the experience than that, so you can save me the explanation. I just want to be able to look back on my accomplishments and say, "Damn that was an awesome time!!" "I remember when..." and "Through my education and opportunties I was able to 'promote this' 'save that' and 'improve mankinds...'" You know that philanthropist type shit, that makes one feel an important part of the human race.

  That's not to say that the simple act of raising a family and doing good by your friends and family isn't noble. I just want to be able to see the world, enjoy myself, and help a bit in the process. Ah well, April is a long ways away... lots of time to research.

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Oct. 26th, 2005 @ 03:49 pm Much a do about nothing...
Current Mood: contemplative
Well evidently I have either a lot to write about today or very little to do with my time. I'm willing to put money on the latter though. This week seems to be creeping along like a slow and agonizing death.
Well I suppose I could write about something that has been bothering me for the last few days, that'd be interesting, for me at least:P I recently went through a break-up/time apart agreement/whatever it is, with a girlfriend of almost 2 years!! Oddly, this didn't affect me in its infancy like most would expect it to. Now however, after 2 or 3 months I am really beginning to feel its affects and am very often doubting myself.
Its not that the break up wasn't necessary, I throughly realize now that it was my fault for being and arrogant ass, and concerning myself mainly with my future and not 'our' future at the time. Alas, it is probably too late to make up for all that. My conundrum lies in the fact that I am now witnessing one of the loneliest periods of the life I have known.
Sleep is irreverent... and hardly worth it anymore sicne there is no one to share my bed with, to cuddle and hold, to be kicked and annoyed by fidgiting. Its funny how you all of a sudden miss those things. The things that made you pull out your hair at times. Comparably, time spent at my new apartment is similar as well. I have a roommate, my best friend in this world, someone I am never scared to act myself around, someone that will always be there for me and I for him.
The only problem is that he has a girlfriend whom he apparently loves very much. Don't get me wrong here, I'm glad he has a gf and he definitely deserves one. Its just that right now, in my current mind frame, I find myself resentful of her, find myself upset that she is takeing up too much of his time, time that he could spend around me. Of course, I do realize that I need to look past this and quti with the self pity and wallowing... but see it more of a process than a decision.
I cried myself to sleep on Sunday night. I had just watched "The boy whose skin fell off" (highly recommend watching it by the way) and "What women want". The first as the title denotes was a bit much to watch and very emotional, the second evidently got me thinking about the ex. I felt shallow for worrying about such irrelevant details of life when people are diease stricken and at the same tiem missed my ex and the company that she provided.
I am going through some pretty tough mental/emotional times right now that are mainly brought on by myself and my lack of self worth. I should state here though, that I have a deep respect for myself and my abilities and that I know this is just a thing I am going through and that I will learn to deal with it as time passes.
At this time, I have a recent acquaintance, how although she finds me creepy :P and all she wants to talk to me about is sex (haha, sorry Liz - I know its more than that), has been a formidable shining light for me. Even though she doesn't realize it. People sometimes say that you cannot meet and have a real relationship with someone on the internet. I would beg to differ with that opinion. Even if it is a different type of relationship, the opportunity for physical contact is absent and less on the mind visually. What is a hinderence for some is a gold mine for many....I just find it much easier to speak freely adn more confidently through the internet than in person. Possibly because I have the ability to edit thoughts before sharing them :P

Well that was a load off, although it may only be the tip of the proverbial iceberg..
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Oct. 26th, 2005 @ 12:14 pm Fanfare and other useless info....
Current Mood: bored
Well time to sit back and relax....its Lunch time mmmmm:P So I've been takling to a friend of mine that is currently living in Tampa Bay. Trying to get he to sign up for a LJ, no such luck. I used to 'see' her, if you can call it that, when she was still here. What an interesting time.
She is one of the only girls that I have ever had a difficult time instigating. In fact, most of the time she left me wondering what the hell was going on :P :P I rather enjoyed that time though, it was a significant challenge for me, even if I didn't enjoy the end results.
Anyway, she has a bf now that I know, although I don't know him that well. Either way, you know that there was a F***ing hurricane that hit Florida this week, right??? Well apparently his studying for midterms was more important than wondering or worrying if she was alright... didn't even call until well after it was over!!! He said that he didn't even know if it would affect here because he didn't know where it or she was!!
Now feel free to correct me, but who the hell worries about school when a quote "loved one" unquote could possibly be in the middle of a fricken hurricane? Personally, the first thing I'd do was get on the phone, then I'd keep myself very well educated on the topic and know what was going on. Maybe I'm old fashinoned, but friends and family come well before school!
On to other things, I am currently at work, bored out of my mind! I am of the inkling to begin my week of Lamenting that I have displayed on my msn name, however am feeling a bit too lazy for that now...
Who knows, if the rain keeps up I may begin that trek when I get home tonight.
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Oct. 26th, 2005 @ 09:32 am The irrelevant statement
Current Mood: curious
Well, as I am sure many before and many after have stated, this is my first post!! My curious mood is indicative of many things, none the least of this new and fascinating montage of Live journals. I was directed to this medium of discussion through a recent acquaintance (whom you will undoubtedly hear more about) and an article in my University newspaper. Although recently graduated I am still in that confusing transition from school to the working class.

I still wake up in the mornings wondering if I want to go to class or not :P

Well if you haven't taken the time to read anything on my profile, I might as well introduce myself. I am 23 years young, was born and raised in what I believe is the most beautiful province/country in the world - I have significant travel experience to back this up. As noted recently graduated with a Bachelor's degree in Recreation and Sports Studies, apparently I got a concentration in Outdoor Recreation and Tourism as well - though I can't remember trying for that :P I am currently working for the Provincial government in what is possibly the most related field to my degree that anybody could ever ask for.

Other than that, I can be a fun and outgoing guy, I can be a real pain in the ass - all jokes aside I rather enjoy bugging people and instigating them:P I believe that I have my head on my shoulders and am proud of my common sensicallness (not sure if that is or could be a word.) Nonetheless, I do and not always proudly, profess that I can be very very arrogant and self-indulgent.

I see to sides to that though, I know many people who share that trait with me, although know hardly any that are willing to acknowledge it up front and bluntly. The only problem being that I do not always show that acknowledgment in my actions. Meh, I'm still relatively young, dumb and full of...(fill in your own anecdote that) and have time to work on that.

Anyway, that's about all for now. If I have sparked any interest stay tuned as I get more used to this medium, if not....well I guess it doesn't really matter :P:P Nice talking with you, Have a good one.
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